Here I am again witm my new one-moth sub, so I won´t be lazy and change my journal. To read that summer article make me feel kind irelevantly.

What's new? School was, school is and school will be. Luckily I love my school.
Intensive... I was intensively learning for worst examination ever and hopefully I have finished it in time. Freedom is above all. I have some time to learn for another examinations. It is a kind of madness when yo have all things finished and then you go and instead you took any novel, you take another student's book.

Much time has passed and many things happened. I am currently unemployed, but hopefully I will get back my temporary on surgical ICU. Still looking forward. I like the work there and I like people there, strangely porcelain and fragile...
I got my thiesis recently. OK, I was very, very annoying since summer (that means fast enough to be the first to ask for it), so I got a thiesis of my dreams. It is Anesthesiology and Intensive Care thiesis and the theme is Care about unconscious patient. They say you have to choose your thiesis by what you are interested in. So that one is mine... Thanks to things that happened and people that I met... To that ones I was carying about.
Intensively. To care intensively... What it means? 10% of time you do somethink intensively for that poor uncoscious patient to make his life as good as possible. And 90% of time you intensively you devore yourself with your own powerlessnes. Because there is a thin unseenable line in the state of that person between what you can do for him and all that things what are not in your abilities. I (want to) walk the line...

Sometimes I feel a bit strange, because in my work I got used to and tooked to work with people. Physically care about them. Touch them. All that wake, porcelain fragile patients... Not just to sit by the comp an meditate about results. Not. So I feel that I should do intensive medicine. Hopefully I will be good enough...


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